A Heavy Heart: Navigating Grief Without Answers

Posted by Heather Ella Rise on January 23, 2026

Dear friends, supporters, and kind souls around the world,

Today, I'm not okay. The grief that comes from losing my baby, Kali, crashes over me like waves I can't escape. It's so heavy, so all-consuming, that functioning feels impossible. Simple tasks slip away, and the world blurs through tears. I miss her every breath, her laughter, her light, my 11-year-old girl who deserved so much more.

I'm crying out for strong prayers. Please, lift me up to God. Ask Him to bring answers to every question that's haunted me since that tragic day in 2025, when family court ignored my warnings about her severe asthma, leading to her fatal attack. Why was her life cut short? I have no clue how to move forward without closure, without those answers. It feels like the enemy is winning, like darkness is prevailing.

But I know the scriptures don't support that. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18). "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning" (Psalm 30:5). I'm clinging to faith, even when it's so hard, when doubt whispers louder than hope.

Through Coloring Kali’s World Foundation, I'm channeling this grief into purpose, but today, I just need your prayers to keep going.

Thank you for holding space for me. God, hear our cries. 💜

With a heavy but hopeful heart,

Heather Ella Rise

Kali’s Mom & Founder

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